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Icon making spree after discovering the amazingness that is Death Note. Saying that...99% of them are of L cuz he's just sex in a tin...YOM. Anyway, as if yer gonna take any...but plz don't claim as your own cuz I spent two hours taking screen caps -_-. I'm pretty pleased saying that, enjoy my 30 Death Note icons (:
Credit again going to latexandleather for the wonderful brushes and textures.

( inside i realise that i'm the one confused )

Yup I made more icons...unfortunately >_<
I still suck as of yet, but I've been working on my coloring alot.
So yeah...

10 Mick Morris
10 Sonny Moore
5 Porcelain and the Tramps

Credit again going to latexandleather for the wonderful brushes and textures

( and i feel like i'm the victim )

i got photoshop, so i've been making icons like crazy
it's early days and i'm not that good yet...but i thought i'd post my first 10 icons
they're of sonny moore/from first to last
comments appreciated :D

credit goes to latexandleather

( i'll hide you in my walls )

i love how i wake up to sweet texts from you
i love how when i talk about you, you seem to appear online
i love how when i cry, i seem to get texts from you
i love how every song reminds me on you
i love how i can forget what i'm doing, just by looking at you
i love how i dream about you sometimes
i love how you called me mrs kyle by accident that one time
i love how you won't let me buy a thing for myself
i love how i get butterflies thinking about you
i love how i get butterflies even when someone says your name
i love how memories of us flash through my head non-stop
i love how you call me amazing and i beleive it for a second
i love how you tell me everythings gonna be allright
i love how cuddly and warm your hugs are
i love how we have a million inside jokes
i love how we met in that silly random way
i love how we kissed in the rain and i didn't care how bad my hair looked
i love how you looked at me make-up less and told me i was beautiful
i love how you told me i looked pretty when i cried
i love how you say certain words and phrases different to me
i love how you hold me close so i feel so safe
i love how you didn't run away when everyone else did
i love how you accept everything i am and beleive in
i love how you seem to understand everything i'm going through
i love how you're always there for me
i love how cheeky you are when you tell me i have a nice arse
i love how you kiss me even tho people are watching
i love how you hold my hand while i'm eating
i love how i catch you staring at me randomly with sparkly eyes
i love how you kiss my hand and make me feel like that princess
i love how i can burp right in front of you and you just think it's cute
i love how you touch my face when you kiss me
i love how you have like a million nicknames for me
i love how every moment we spend together, we treasure
i love how one day, we won't have to say goodbye and go different ways
i love how long this list is, and how it'll probably make you cry as much as it makes me
i love how i love you so much, and how you love me so much back
i just love everything about you.

A MySpace message I received from my boyfriend a few minutes ago:

"Lisa Jane Connolly
I love you so much
You are my everything
I decided to tell you this
Because i finally realised
Im a geek >_<
but seriously
you make me more happy than
Aiden in my living room with red strawberry laces carrying a bucketfull of signed merch whilst hopping around on UV Magick (without tears) spacehoppers
you
are
my
life
=)
thats pretty much the gist of that
so yeah
I LOVE YOU
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
♥
4L"


How could you not love him? >_<
Well I do, with all my heart

low?
you could say that ¬_¬
and i have no one to talk to cuz no one gives a shit pahahahaha

never in my life have a been a drinker, i'm straight-edge infact
but never in my life have i wanted something to numb all of this stupid emotion
they say alcohol can make worries go away for abit, right?
i just need a few hours of worry free life so i can clear my head
that'll never happen, will it?

i've never had a style icon before...but now i do

mark my words, i will look like her no matter what you say
cuz i'm sick of doing my hair and make-up to please everyone else and i feel ugly!
so i'm going to change, for the sake of myself
and if you don't like it....you can clear off tbh
COMMENT ALL YOU LIKE I DON'T CARE

okay...this worries me immensely
it's been not even 24 hours since i've spoken to ricky....and i miss him, like mad tbh. it's really weird, i've never felt like this in a relationship before. normally i'd start to have second thoughts after a few weeks and get sick of the sight of someone...but this time....it's so different. i never stop thinking about him..ever, he's been in my dreams a few times. but it scares me you know, cuz i think what will i do if i loose him, cuz he has become part of my life now. it's been 2 months (3 if you count that month when we weren't a couple yet) and we can still find stuff to talk about...before with other guys, conversation wore out after mere hours and it just turned into "hi how are you" conversations. and the other part that makes me feel the weirdest...i don't even know his parents, yet i was worried sick when his mum had to go into hospital and never stopped thinkin about it. he seems genuinely concerned with my emotions, and i never stop caring about how he feels. when others ran cuz i got too difficult (with my OCD and everything), he stayed, he helps me and supports me through. it kills me, everytime i scald myself to feel clean, and he sees the condition of my hands and thinks that he isn't good enough for me....but if it weren't for him i would have been gone long ago. so i'm stopping. i'm so sick of disappointing everyone else just cuz i want a minute of pain to feel better. so far so good...til i was asked to do the dishwasher (the one thing my dad KNOWS i hate, and makes me do it everytime). i'm trying so hard with it, lawrie says i'm "mentally murdering myself" cuz i keep calling myself a fat mess all the time. idk why...i just see all those gorgeous skinny girls on tv with that hourglass figure and tiny legs...and here i'm stuck with this pear shape, huge thighs and big tummy. i've grown to a size 10, and even though i've been told that's not big...i feel disgusting. i've tried not eating, but i know that'll upset people even more. ricky thinks i'm beautiful...he knows i'm not perfect, but he still thinks im beautiful, he even asks to see my belly sometimes cuz he thinks it's cute (which i don't get at all). it's funny, i started off on the verge of tears, but when i talk about him i feel so happy and optimistic. i'm wearing colour tonight, a total different style to what i usually do. suddenly i don't want to be a goth that blends in...i want to be different and look my age...it's stupid cuz i've never had a style icon ever before but now all i wanna do is dress as beautifully and colourfully as Luciana. wow this went on...i don't expect anyone to read this btw hahaha.

I miss my baby =/

Ricky's mum : what are ya doin'?
Ricky : I'm just talking to Lisa
Ricky's mum : is that yer bird?
Ricky : yeah...=]


How could you not fall in love with that =/

....SO in love

birthday to me hah

Did LJ mail ME of all people...to inform me it was my own birthday o_O
I know I'm a wee bit....thick like, but I'm not that bad haha
What else? Um...aye, I need a haircut but I don't know what to get done. I just wanna be fit, but I have no sense of style (I wear red and pink together, come on).
My heart rate is whoa fast today, making me feel really faint. I blame sleep deprevation, cuz I stayed up worrying all night about the past and all...
And for the record, my boyfriend has the most gorgeous eyes I have ever seen in my life, only one month until he comes over to N.I. :] and also, my other mate Rachie is comin' over on Tuesday from England and I am WELL excited.
Most importantly...it's my birthday in 2 days :D
Can't wait to spend the day with my best mates in the world :]
I'm comin' 17 like...but what;s good about that? You know how when yer 18 and all, you can buy alcohol for example and all....well what am I allowed to do? Apart from driving like cuz that's a snore and won't happen cuz I'm a midget like xD
Dresden Dolls time. For the sake of this band, I wish I could play piano :/

when people only wanna ask how yer doin', so you will ask them back and they can go into a whole speel of stuff. Don't get me wrong, I live to help my mates, but if you wanna talk about something just say, stop hinting and stop with the small talk acting like you care about my life. Okay?

Make it clean, try scalding the skin
Red raw and bleeding, etchted red lines scar
Across the hands and over the body
Nails like blades, comfort the compulsions
Shop around, I'll go look for a sink
I'm bleeding on your floor, but at least I'm clean
A working tap and hand dryer saves the day
Hiding it away, it's not what you first think
I'm not psychotic, I swear it's all lies
This seems so normal, why do you stare?
Behind closed doors uttering laughter and wails
I can only make it go away by washing again
Don't touch me, I don't know where you've been
I don't want your disease, I've got my own
Continue your life, I'll continue mine
The obsessive compulsive, paranoia and lies
Sickness and dirt live in the tiniest of etches
Force it out now, before it contaminates you too
Clean up boy before you put your tongue down my throat
Who knows where you've been or what you've done last night
Words mean nothing unless you can prove it
Cuz no, I can't trust any of you anymore
As I can't trust myself anymore either
I love you too, I'll be back when I'm better
Give me something to do, I'd give my world for a past-time
For when I'm involved, I dwell less in danger and fear
Disease spread all over media and news
Why is it this way, doctor is there nothing you can do?
This medication seems inappropriate for my condition right now
I don't wanna be a drugged up junkie like the rest of them
A cupboard full of pills and a heart working overtime because of it all
Why me? They just don't get it, do they? (they never get it)
I'd like to see you try, see through my eyes and feel my pain (inside and out)
You won't like what you get:
Everytime you look in a mirror all you see is a failure
Everytime you look at your hands all you see is dirt
And everytime you hear people laugh, you just want to die
Because this is what you've done to me
OCD wrecks your life, and obsessive compuslive life